Rescue Me!!

Hey guys! Omg so today I did not feel like I had a good start and I really almost cried...I know that is very childish but I just feel like dummy Mcdummerson...So...when we took Jeanne to school this morning I left from there and walked to my school which did not take too long....I realize that I am not always the brightest bulb in the bunch but Europe can be so confusing! So i made it to 14 Rue Leonarde de Vinci or however you spell it in French...that is where my school is well apparently there are 3 different entrances w 14....but i would not know that because that is not normal....So anyway i walked in to the first building labeled 14 and there were 2 set of glass sliding doors...well i got into the first set and i did not see any signs for France Langue (the name of my school) so I thought it was a little strange and then I tried to proceed through the 2nd set of glass doors and....no such luck....I felt like an idiot and no one was around to help me...hahahaha This reminds me of something shown to me at work on Youtube...You remember Pete? Where the man could not figure out how to get out of the door so he just ran through and broke the glass? HAHAHA Well that is what i was about to do! I am not kidding...so I called the number to the school and luckily the woman spoke some English and she laughed at me and hung up and I thought she said wait but I really did not know....sooo I wasn't sure if it was an accidental hang up or if she meant to so I didn't know what to do...should I call back? Should I stand here like a random freak-a-zoid? I just decided to stand there and about 1 minute later a woman is looking at me through the outside of the first set of glass doors...ok good she found me but I still could not get out....She really got a laugh out of me and it definitely showed....but if I can make someone's day full of laughter by being a complete DUMB ASS then I am willing to provide that person with some joy :)
Ok so she showed me that there are 2 entrances marked 14....well that is BS in my book because it is so confusing....but there was a sign outside of the other building that read "France Langue"...ok maybe she had me on that one but in my defense it is Paris and it is foreign to me so I did not know if they put signs outside of everywhere...and because I did not pass both I stopped at the first one I saw...
So anyway...she did not speak fluent English and in my mind at a school for people who are learning French the people should know some other languages besides French since they are working with people who do not really know French...or so I thought....
I happened to be in the wrong place and had to use a map given to me by the woman to find my way to the other building where I had to register.
Unbenounced (is that a word? i really think it is but spell check does not agree) to me I had to take a placement test ...which absolutely makes sense....and everyone was speaking to me in fluent, fast French. WHAT THE HECK! Ok so I was under the impression that there would be a lot of English speaking people who could fluently talk to me in English so that I would know exactly what to do and feel very comfortable...oh that would just be too easy I guess...
I went into a room and had to take a test which was really embarrassing because I do not know much French and I am alright with conjugating most verbs in the present and that is it...not the future, not the past, not the imperfect...in fact I need to go over those terms again in English because I forget what a lot of them mean.
So I get done with my test and this French man who works there tries to talk to me and I am just like oui, non, like an idiot! Like I do not know how to talk...anyways he sees that I am horrible at French and I think he kind of laughs and the expression on his face leads me to believe his thoughts are "what the hell is this stupid girl doing...we do not even have a placement for this kind of ignorance in any of our classes"....haha so it makes me want to cry because while I am in the room there are also a lot of other people taking the test and they all seem to speak very well in French and then I start to wonder...am I supposed to know more?
I was specifically informed before I arrived here that it was alright that I did not know much French because I would learn from everything here and take classes and such.
I do not think that is the case now but I might just have to cry and get over it. It's not like I cannot learn...because I will...but I just feel like a dummy because everyone else knows it.
Once the man going over my test realized I was here to be an Au Pair then he took me to a different room and a woman was trying to talk to me in French.
My 2-year-old answers were enough to make her direct me to another woman...she set me up with the class and spoke English but I don't think she wanted to because she probably thought I was an imbecile...oh well so I got that taken care of! Phew
My classes are Tuesday-Friday 1030 to 1245 and then a class about French movies on Mondays at 1030-12 I believe.
Mind you the classes started in October on the 1st which means I will be a month behind :( I already have a lot to catch up on but now I just need to get into gear.
I want to ask that all my french peeps out there talk to me in French or give me some verbs to learn because I am struggling!
I then left the school and started to walk to the metro with map in hand----obvious tourist----haha and then i realized that I needed to get some passport pictures taken....Paris is so expensive by the way....So i was walking along a road where there were a lot of shops and I stopped at a wine shop and asked a nice woman where I could find a place to get my pictures and she told me and I felt successful even though my language was broken...but I DID IT!
So i sound the photo shop place and got 8 passport pictures for 10 Euros....that is ridiculous its like 15 buck but oh well...
So I got those, found the metro, got home, and now I am happy that I have all of that done!
I just need to make it back to Paris by 6 to pick up Jeanne and meet Germain and then we are going to the market to get some food :)
My classes begin tomorrow and now I am sooo scared! There are people from all over and in my room there were a lot of Brazilians when I was taking the test. The classes are all in French and I am scared to get called on or anything...I really don't think I will make any friends because no one wants to be friends with a dummy...haha ok I am definitely taking out some aggression on this blog but it's so frustrating!
The girl that I called...the other au pair that Germain's friend has...yea definitely has not called me back or answered because I called again today :( I think I will try to call her again shortly because this is really annoying...
I love everyone and I miss everyone...I am starting to think that I should have just come to Paris for a few weeks to visit hahaha I know that I will be fine and once I can speak fluent French it will be completely worth my stay.
I need to find a personal tutor to follow me everywhere I go....maybe a man will come along...haha probably not and until then i must study study study!!!
Love you, Miss you
J